Its' raining outside....

It's been raining all afternoon and night today. I just got over a flu bug and I am so glad it didn't last that long. I don't deal well with getting sick because I am constantly on the go, and when I can't move around and do a bunch of things, it makes me crazy!

Anyways, I have been thinking a lot about lent and what to give up? Well, could you not give something up and try to do something positive instead? I need to look at all situations as if they were a positive thing instead of a negative thing. I have been very negative lately, and so I wonder if maybe I can change that and have that be my "thing" for lent. I'm excited to go to church this weekend! It;s been waaaaaay too long since I've last gone. I want to stand there and sing and listen to the words of Pastor Jerry and just feel happy! I need to go! Missy wants to go, too, and I feel good bringing someone new to the church!

One more week until Spring Break! Over break, I hope to go out to my brothers' at least once, hang out with Ang, and try and work out most of the days. We shall see if that all happens! I am happy to just have a great long week of no school!

Tomorrow we are heading home for the weekend because we have the Nickelback concert! I'm excited!

C-ya later!

Trust...

I have a hard time trusting people. It takes a lot to earn my complete trust. I don't tall many people my thoughts and feelings. I am extremely disappointed in a certain someone at this moment. I feel like I have no privacy and I can't wait until next year. I am ready to live with Craig and Ryan, two people I completely trust! Enough said!

What to do?

I am sitting at work with nothing to do...I already did any homework I had, so I'm ahead of the game today! One more class and done for the day!

This weekend was busy....
Friday was the PBM Reunion Show which was soooo much fun! I miss seeing those guys play and standing at the foot of the stage dancing and singing! They did amazing, I'm so proud of all of them!

Saturday was Russell's birthday party and Valentines Day. I did not get to see my valentine, but I did get to see a lot of my family, which was really nice!

Sunday I got no homework done and came back to school and was up late because of procrastinating.

It was an ok weekend, but nothing too special!

I hope that something nice happens this weekend, maybe? I need some motivation!

Almost time for class...

I'm sitting in the library waiting for my class to start at 2:00. Today it is rainging, and I actually like it! It is making my hair look horrible, but I don't really care about that stuff too much any more! I wish it was easier and faster to get ready in the morning! If I don't give myself at least an hour and a half, I will not make it to class on time in the morning! So, mostly, I don't get ready, I just go! LOL! Anyways, I did make it home early enough to go to the hairplace with my sister to get her hair done for the dance this past weekend, I helped her with her makeup and I got to go to her friends' house to take some pictures as well! It was really nice being able to go along and see her get ready for once! Afterward, I sat and watched HSM3 while talking with my mom. Saturday was Jennifer's solo and ensemble....after that me and Russell went to the mall for a bit and then me, Russell, and Jennifer went out to Tommy and Jenna's apartment. What should have taken us only 45 mintutes, took us 21/2 hours to get home...we were stuck on I-94 for a long time due to a car accident! It was fun, though, even though they might not think so! It was an extra hour or so that we got to spend together this weekend!

Sunday was just a lay around, do homework kind of day and then back to school! This week hasn't been too crazy, I've been studying and doing a lot of work, but nothing horrible, like last week! Next week I have one exam and a project due, so we'll see how busy my weekend is! This weekend is also the PBM Reunion Show that I am so excited for! We are going to go out to eat before the show and then go watch the boys! Also, it is Russell's birthday party, I can't believe he will be 11 years old! I'm excited to see family and everything else and I can actually get russell a birthday gift this year, so I am excited!

Well, looks like its time for me to make my way to class!

A break from the craziness...

It's been a while since I wrote, I have been so busy already this semester. I started a job at the Finance and La Department of CMU. It's only 6 hours a week, but it is Monday through Thursday right in between all my classes and I feel like I never have a second to stop and breathe throughout the day. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful that I got the job, I don't really do much and no one really shows me how to do anything so I kinda have to figure it out for myself, but whatev! I worked at the office for two years, I think I can handle it! Anyways, I love my workout classes that I am taking! They make me feel a tiny bit better about myself, even thought I have nothing to show for it yet. I am annoyed with the fact that both anxiety meds the doctor has given me seem to do nothing for me! I am sick of paying money for a million pills that I am not going to end up using...give me something to make me feel normal instead of crazy, HONESTLY!

I'm really missing home right now. I always do on Sundays when we are up at school because I know that Tommy and Jenna go home for dinner and I feel like everyone is there but me! It makes me sad! My sister's Sweetheart Dance is next Friday and I am going to try like hell to get home in time to see her off....this will be her 5th school dance (i think) and I have not been home for any one of them yet and it sucks! It makes me sad because even though she was little, she was there for all of mine....and I had a lot of friends there every time too!

I wish my hair would grow faster....these bangs are horrible, I am lazy to work with them so I just scrunch my hair every day...

I have to do a butt load of homework today and I am not looking forward to it. I'm just gonna pray to God to help me make it through all the hard work and the semester. I can't wait to come home and go to church again. It makes me feel so much better!

Break....

So far, it has been relaxing! I have been waking up about 9:00 every morning, working out a little bit, then getting ready for my day! Tommy moved out a few days ago and so I finally have a room to myself at home! It is amazing! I think that my sister is moving her bedroom downstairs, though, so I will be back upstairs, which will be so weird because my room has not been upstairs sinceI was in 10th grade! CRAZY! But thats ok, I'm not home most of the year! I was cleaning out some drawers in my old dresser and found all these old pictures and it really made me miss being younger and in high school and seeing everyone every day! I can't believe how different things are now! Its weird that everyone is either moved away, getting married, or having babies! I really miss everyone!

On another note, I went Christmas shopping yesterday! I went two places to get Craig's gifts, then him and I went to Lakeside and I got everyone done except for my mom, Craig's mom, and my pick for Craig's family. I know what I am getting my mom, but I have no clue what to get the other two! I am extremely excited to give Craig his gifts this because he has no idea what they are. Last year he knew everything, he guessed each gift before he opened it! It sucked! LOL! But not this year!!!

Tonight we are all going out for my brother's birthday! I can't believe he is 26 years old! It just brings me back to my thought of how much everyone and everything has changed! Sometimes I wish time would just slow down a little!

The OCD is kicking in....

Today was such a bad day, as far as being anal goes! Haha! I swear, I was packing and I had to re-pack three times because I didn't like how it was fitting! Craig slept all day, because he didn't sleep last night, and although I was very happy that he was finally getting some sleep, I just wanted to make my bed! LOL! PJ came in my room today and sprayed that fake snow stuff on my mirrir, which I already have perfectly decorated, and I about died! Plus, it pissed me off cause he "drew" a penis with the snow! I am a girl, not a boy, I think he forgets a lot of the time! Also, I was very annoyed because I am realizing that some people are so damn ridiculous that I cannot stand them one bit! My head has been pounding all day long, which sucks!

Today I got back $76.00 when I sold my books back, so Craig and I got a few things from the school store. I got another pair of comfy pants, Craig a hoodie, and my mom a CMU Mom sweatshirt! Craig got his dad some sweatpants and his brother some shorts! We also went to SBX and he got his sister a shirt and I got a shirt, too! Haha!

Tomorrow we will be heading home and I hope that I will be able to see people that I never see over break! That was my intentions over break last year and it didn't quite work out that way! I'm a bit more OCDish this year, so we'll see!

Have a good night!