Break....

So far, it has been relaxing! I have been waking up about 9:00 every morning, working out a little bit, then getting ready for my day! Tommy moved out a few days ago and so I finally have a room to myself at home! It is amazing! I think that my sister is moving her bedroom downstairs, though, so I will be back upstairs, which will be so weird because my room has not been upstairs sinceI was in 10th grade! CRAZY! But thats ok, I'm not home most of the year! I was cleaning out some drawers in my old dresser and found all these old pictures and it really made me miss being younger and in high school and seeing everyone every day! I can't believe how different things are now! Its weird that everyone is either moved away, getting married, or having babies! I really miss everyone!

On another note, I went Christmas shopping yesterday! I went two places to get Craig's gifts, then him and I went to Lakeside and I got everyone done except for my mom, Craig's mom, and my pick for Craig's family. I know what I am getting my mom, but I have no clue what to get the other two! I am extremely excited to give Craig his gifts this because he has no idea what they are. Last year he knew everything, he guessed each gift before he opened it! It sucked! LOL! But not this year!!!

Tonight we are all going out for my brother's birthday! I can't believe he is 26 years old! It just brings me back to my thought of how much everyone and everything has changed! Sometimes I wish time would just slow down a little!

The OCD is kicking in....

Today was such a bad day, as far as being anal goes! Haha! I swear, I was packing and I had to re-pack three times because I didn't like how it was fitting! Craig slept all day, because he didn't sleep last night, and although I was very happy that he was finally getting some sleep, I just wanted to make my bed! LOL! PJ came in my room today and sprayed that fake snow stuff on my mirrir, which I already have perfectly decorated, and I about died! Plus, it pissed me off cause he "drew" a penis with the snow! I am a girl, not a boy, I think he forgets a lot of the time! Also, I was very annoyed because I am realizing that some people are so damn ridiculous that I cannot stand them one bit! My head has been pounding all day long, which sucks!

Today I got back $76.00 when I sold my books back, so Craig and I got a few things from the school store. I got another pair of comfy pants, Craig a hoodie, and my mom a CMU Mom sweatshirt! Craig got his dad some sweatpants and his brother some shorts! We also went to SBX and he got his sister a shirt and I got a shirt, too! Haha!

Tomorrow we will be heading home and I hope that I will be able to see people that I never see over break! That was my intentions over break last year and it didn't quite work out that way! I'm a bit more OCDish this year, so we'll see!

Have a good night!

I'm done!

I cannot believe I am completely done with my first ever semester at CMU! I think I can safely say that it was nothing like I ever expected it would be! I thought I would feel a little bit more fulfilled, but I don't, at all! I'm very happy to be going home for a month, but I am sad to be leaving my wonderful bedroom and bed behind for a month. Plus, the kids still have school for another week at least and mom and dad still have work, so half the day I'm gonna be home alone anyways.

Something really pissed me off today! An old friend called just to brag about something.... how nice is that? I'm not gonna name any names, but I haven't talked to this person in a long time and to call me out of nowhere to brag is just so rude!

On another note, I feel as if something is missing in my life! I think that I need a job, or I need something so that I feel like I belong somewhere, or belong to something? I feel as if I keep searching for something and I am not finding it. The sad thing is that I have no idea what it is that I am searching for? I can't sleep at night any more, because Craig and I have gotten so used to staying up really late and taking naps during the day. But now that I have no reason to stay up late, I am scared that when I want to go to bed, my thoughts won't stop for a minute to let me sleep! We shall see, I guess?

On a happier note, I cannot wait to get my camera! And when I get home this weekend I get to pick up my new glasses! I cannt wait! I haven't had a new pair in so many years and these are really cute! When I get my new camera I will definately take a picture of them! Haha! I am also excited for our annual "Circle" (haha) Christmas Party! Last year was a lot of fun, with Ang choking as she tried to tell us her and Miah were engaged! I don't want no more surprises this year! LOL! There's been way too many this year and its crazy! Don't get me wrong, I am extremely happy for everyone, but I just keep waiting for something amazing to happen to me, I don't care what it may be, I just want to feel something? I dunno?

Anyways, I'm goonna go lay next to my sleeping prince charming and read a book by flashlight, since I can't turn the lights on until he's awake :)! Have a good week!

This weekend....

was fun! Last night our neighbors had a party, so I actually let loose and drank a little bit. I think I needed it! I feel a lot more relaxed today than I have in a while! I started reading Twilight and I love it! I'm already about half-way through, well, about 1/3 of the way through! Nothing really exciting has happened with my life lately. I had a job interview last week for Special Olympics of MI, but I didn't get the job :( That's ok, I think I'm just gonna work at the cafeteria on campus next semester. They give you pretty much any hours, so that would be all right, I guess! I don't have much of an option, because I HAVE to have a job...I'm so broke!

Craig and I are going to pull an all nighter! i don't need to, but I feel bad that he always has to, so I'm gonna attempt it as well! We'll be going home Thursday or Friday and we are stopping at the Coach Outlet on the way, so I am waaaaay excited about that! I hope everyone does good on their finals, since I'm a loser and don't really have anything big! Haha!

C-ya!

Tumors...

I always think that I have one in my head somewhere. I get these horrible headaches every single day! I don't know if it is from being on the computer so much or something else. I went to the doctors for it a while ago and she gave me a pain killer, assuming I was having migraines. She said to come back if the medicine didn't help. Well, any time I take the pills I get really nautious, so obviously they don't work. She said that next time I come back, she might want to do a catscan and that scares me! I keep thinking that I'll have some sort of brain tumor and have to have brain surgery or something crazy! I don't want that to happen!

I'm just crazy! And so is my little man! Loki is bored and won't stop diggin at the carpet! Any suggestions on how to stop that?! I took a new pic of him and I tonight!

Sad...

Missy posted a really old video on facebook today and as much as I loved it, it made me totally sad...I realize that I have gained a lot of weight and I do not like it! It seems as if everyone I know can lose wait and I just keep gaining...I'm sad now...Criag and I always talk about losing weight or working out, but we never do it....over Christmas break, we are doing it....I don't care if I don't like it...I need to do it for myself...I think I will be a much more positive person if I feel good about the way I look! Sorry to complain, but it really made me sad!

It's winding down...

I am so happy that the end of the semester is here! This week and then Monday and Tuesday of next week and we're done! Me and Craig are going to sign our lease on Wednesday for next year! I'm so excited! I find myself looking at kitchen things every time I am in the store now. I really want this awesome coffee pot for christmas thatI saw at Target! It has a dispenser, so you just put your cup under it and press a button, there is no pot involved!

Thanksgiving was good! It was a bit more lowkey than normal, but I'm assuming thats because my cousin, Pete, wasn't there. He got his appendix removed the day before Thanksgiving, so he couldn't make it! He always brings the party to life. None of the little girls were there, so it was more quiet! We went to my house until about 8:00 and then we went to Craig's and we played Trivial pursuit with his family, which I knew absolutely no answers! The day after Thanksgiving, all of us girl cousins(and Joey) went to EMU for the EMU vs. CMU football game! It wa freeeeeezing! And CMU lost, sadly! But we had a great time! All of us, plus my brother, went out to eat afterward and it was just a lot of fun! I always laugh a ton when I am with all of them! I am really happy that Tommy and I are older now because he used to be so mean to me and now we get along great!

I have a new niece, too! Sort of! Tommy and Jenna got a puppy on Saturday! Her name is Lola and she is so adorable! She is a Lab/Basset Hound and she is practically pure white! She's so pretty! Loki is in love with her, too! I guess that means its about that time to get my little man fixed so we don't have any puppies!

I can't wait for Christmas break! It is much needed! Oh, and I dyed my hair and got it cut! I don't like the bangs, so there might not be a pic on here unless I get a very good one!

Hey Nat- If you are reading this! I am praying for you! I see you only have 11 days until baby time! I hope everything is going well for you!! I can't wait t see some pics of this baby!! Take care!

What to do with my hiar....

I really want to get bangs, what do you think of these few pics....

I want to get a completely different color as well... I would like a dark brown base, with a few different color highlights in it!

Can't sleep...

I hate these nights where I am so exhausted but I cannot fall asleep! Today was a random day...first of all, its always weird when we actually stay up at school for more than one weekend in a row. I think this is the third, possibly? Anyway, Doug's (my roommate) girlfriend, Jen came up for the weekend and PJ(my other roommate) went home for the weekend! As I posted last night, we went out to one of the bars and had a great time! Today I slept until about 12:30, woke up, made Craig and I some breakfast and just hung out for quite a while. The four of us went out to dinner at Red Lobster and I have foudn my new favorite meal! I am not a huge fan of fish, but I ordered the Talapia in a Bag...it is AMAZING! I am going to learn how to make it and surprise Craig one day! Anyways, I just have been catching up online with all the TV shows I have missed! I let Craig take my TV out into the living room for the night because him and Doug are playing video games! LOL! But now I can't sleep....I either need Craig or I need my TV! It's pathetic! I have my little man, Loki, but it still is not enough! I think I need to grow up a little? Or face my fears of sleeping alone and being in the dak alone! I dunno? But I'm gonna try again to go to sleep and if it doesn't work, I am just going to go in the living room with the boys and fall asleep on the couch! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

P.S. I love the man in this picture with all my heart! Craig has been amazing this weekend! I love you, baby!

Fun times~

Tonight me, Craig, Doug and Jen went to Coco joe's! It was so fun! I never go to the bar, let alone with another girl in the picture, its always me and the guys, so I had a lot of fun! Jen never drinks and she did and it was really fun! We took a lot of fun pictures! The bar had dueling piano players, so it was awesome! I had a rough week and I really needed this! I hope everyone had a fun week, I'll make a better blog tomorrow!

Lazy....

That is definately me today! I had told Craig last night to call me when he woke up this morning if he wanted a ride to class. Otherwise, I set my alarm for 10:30 because I didn't have class until noon. Well, he never called and when my alarm went off at 10:30, I turned it off and didn't wake up until noon! Go figure! Then I layed around until about 1:30 until Doug and Ryan came in my room to chat! Ryan(who will be living with Craig and I next year) asked if I was going to the CMU game tonight! So apparently, that is my plan for the night now! I have never been to a football game here, so I'm kind of excited! Ryan and I are going to look at a house real quick for next year and Iwould be so happy if it works out! It would be soooo amazing to have a house instead of an apartment! But with my luck, its probably disgusting along with probably 80% of the houses owned by students up here!

Nothing too exciting today, so have a good daaaaay!

It's just one of those days...

...where everything seems to go wrong, one thing after another! I'm so tired because I couldn't fall asleep last night! I didn't fall aseep until 2AM and then I had to wake up at 7AM! So I woke up, took Loki out to pee in the frigid cold winds....I'm standing there and standing there and he doesn't poop (like he does every single morning), so I take him in. The second I take him into the outside hallway thing, he poops! I'm like, great! So I clean it up, eat some breakfast, and get ready for class. I knew that the websited we have been working on were due today, but my teacher said he would help me finish up in class, because I wrote him an email about how confused I am! Well, I got about five minutes of help and that was it. He told me that I could come back at 11:00 when he had his next class and he would help me at the beginning. So I go to my second class, then go all they way back to the education building for help.....I sat through the entire frickin class before he came up to me and said "Do you have any other questions?"! I'm just kinda like "uhm....yeah"! So anyways, I got no help and I thought I would be done with it today, but now its due Thurday and I have to hope that he will help me at the BEGINNING of class this time! So then I leave and go to Kroger real quick and I was just gonna pick up Loki real quick and then go to Craig's for some lunch, but of course, I just HAD to lock my keys in my bedroom! So I got to break in my room with a damn butterknife!

I'm just like, WOW! If one more thing goes wrong, I might puch something! It might not sound like a bad day to you, but I was just frustrated! And now I am going to take a nap, then wake up and do homework for most of the night! I have a paper to finish and some homework for one of my other classes!

I just found this pic on an old flash drive! It was Craig's clever idea for something he did for a graphic design class! It makes me feel cool! Haha! j/k

I had to put this pic up...

I look absolutely horrific in this picture, but Loki's eyes are hilarious! My sister just emailed this to me the other day! I really don't have many pictures if Loki and I and it makes me sad! I really need my new camera!

Good morning....

It's only 9:30 and I am still awake after taking Craig to class! I feel as if today I am going to get a lot done! I have this website thing that we have been creating in my technology class, (yes, this is one of the classes I do not need), but I have no idea how to use the program that you make the websites with! So my teahcer told me to make a list of questions for him and he will help me tomorrow! So, I will gather all my needed info for tomorrow! That's first on the list! Second on the list....continue writing the paper I started last night! Third....clean my room! And last but not least....stay awake all day with no nap so I can actually go to sleep at a decent hour tonight! I think Craig might actually go to his apartment tonight! That will be the first time in two and a half weeks! I don't like sleeping alone! Hopefully I will be all right on my own tonight, just me and my little man!! I'm sure I'll be bored later and trail off again....

Have a good Monday everyone!

School...

This semester has been such a waste! Craig and I were just talking and we realized that we both just wasted a lot of money and a whole semester. I started out with 15 credits, but I dropped my Geology class right away so I went down to 12 credits. When I finally went and talked to an advisor a couple weeks ago, she told me to drop math because I am failing it and I don't want my GPA to be affected, so I am now down to 9 credits, which puts me on Academic Probation next semester. This just means that I have to pass all my classes with a C or better! No problem, right? Well, the fact that I have to take 16 credits and do amazing in all of them, scares me! Two classes are exercise classes, which I need for my minor and should be a breeze! The other four are all classes for my major, except for one! Hopefully I will do good! I really need to get my butt in gear though, because at this point I hate school so much. I think its just a crappy semester, but I really don't like it at all right now! That's not good, I have a long ways to go!

On the other hand, this weekend was so relaxing! Craig and I never really get to spend time together without people around, so we basically locked ourselves inside the apartment all weekend, not to be bothered! I went outside today and it was SNOWING! I can't believe it! I am so excited to go home for Thanksgiving and see my family! I miss everyone! Also, I can't wait until Christmas so I get my new camera! I have been through two digital cameras in the last two years....its ridiculous! But I can't stand not being able to take pictures! I haven't put new pictures on the web in so long and its driving me crazy!!!

Well, hopefully everyone had a great weekend! Time to go do some homework that I have been putting off for weeks!

P.S. I miss dying my hairstyles!!

Some Bits of My Life...

This first picture is me and my amazing boyfriend, Craig! Craig and I started dating on December 14th, 2006. We met through my cousin, Missy, and his cousin, Brent, who are also dating! It's kind of funny! We talked on the phone for a while before we ever met face to face and he came home from school for Christmas break in 2006 and we have been together ever since! I remember seeing him in person for the first time and how long it had been since I had felt butterflies in my stomach! It was amazing! I love him with all my heart! In one month, it will be two years that we have been together and I could not ask God for anyone better then him! He came around at a really hard time of my life and completely saved me!

This second picture is my little man, Loki! He just turned four months old today and I thank God every single day for bringing him into my life! I was driving home from class 7 weeks ago and I saw a woman sitting in one of the "dogs for sale" parking lots. The sign said that it was a chihuahua that she was selling. I had been looking for a while for the perfect dog...I wanted something small since I am in an apartment so I figured that a chihuahua would be good. I normally don't like chihuahuas, but one look at my little man and I fell in love. I picked him up and he had his head down, so I said "Hi Little Man, you wanna come home with me?" He looked up at me with the cutest, big eyes that were too big for his face, put his paws up by my neck and licked my chin! I had to have him! He is amazing and he always makes me feel good no matter how sad I may be! He is such a lover and a cuddler! Between him and Craig I never have any room in the bed!

So, these are the two loves of my life! They are wonderful!

The Blooging World....

Well, I must say that I never thought I would have a blog....but I don't feel like myspace or facebook are really cut out for my thoughts....i think this would suit me a little bit better!



Anyways, this weekend has been pretty awesome! Craig and I had the apartment to ourselves and it was soooo nice! I realize that I am just to anal and need things clean and in order, which is not good when you have two male roommates! No offense to my boys, but I really hope Craig and I get this other apartment next year, just so I can have things in order and everything! And I really want a kitchen table, which we don't have here!



On another note, I'm hoping that venting in here a little bit might make my days go by a little smoother in some way. I hope you all enjoy reading from here on out!